Walking with the Watsons

November 14, 2019 18 weeks  pregnant…12 weeks  + 2 days longer than my first pregnancy. 14 weeks + 2 days  since seeing those two pink lines for the second time in my life, for the first time without fertility intervention. And the first time I’ve been able to sit down and try to gather and write out thoughts and try to wrap my head around all the work the Lord has done (and continues to do) in my heart during this pregnancy. While these words will be raw and confusing and hard and joyful, I want to have them to look back on as a tangible reminder of this season and of the Father’s pursuit of my heart. I also want to share them because while no two stories are the same, I know there may be someone with whom this will resonate, and prayerfully encourage! Part 1: Feelings/Fears Finding out + Being an advocate for yourself It was the first full cycle post endometriosis and a d&c (to check uterus for infection) when we found out we were pregnant. And we were excit

Another post written months ago, before we saw those two pink lines...I want you to see the journey the Lord has taken me on as I had to wrestle with my sin and pray for faith that was lacking. The Father is a good Father, that gives generously to those who ask... 3.7.19 It’s amazing that I wrote the previous blog entry above 5 months ago, and I’m being drawn back to them now (March 2019). The Lord has been doing some digging up work in me, in Brett, in our family over these past few months. There has been SO MUCH growing and learning, it’s hard to even know how to write it all out, or if I can. What I do know as I’m fighting war against my flesh now, is that wow, do we have a Father that pursues and calls us to Himself. Over the last couple of months, the Lord has been growing me in the area of prayer, and it has led to a lot of divine moments in being called to specifically pray for specific areas in specific people’s lives. I am praying over several friends who are waiti

I love to journal but rarely find the time to do it these days...I also want to put down these words as stones to look back on and remember. Remember the chaos and the joy of parenting two toddlers, moving across states and being pregnant, but mostly remember the pruning and the pursuing that the Father did/does in this life... So, before I get to all the details around finding out about our pregnancy, I thought I'd share what the Lord was doing in my heart a year prior. These first few new posts will be a few journal entries I wrote a while back. Thanks for joining me as I look back over the way the Lord was/is always at work! I wrote this about a year ago, not sure if or when I'd share these words, but now here they are! 10.9.18 There are spontaneous moments the hurt just resurfaces. Lately, I’ve been in Lamentations and pouring over words from Sara Hagerty in Unseen. I have been digging into the Psalms and seeing references to water in the valleys, God’s provision

After doing the laundry, cleaning, ironing and eating lunch, I'm finally sitting down while the boys are napping...and also thinking of all the things still left to do, like that package of Christmas presents I still need to take to the post office for the boys' birthmother (so thankful for her grace and understanding with me) or the grading I could be doing for school.  Isn't that how it often feels? An unending list of to-do's, finding joy in checking off the list, yet we can't turn our brains off because the list never ends.  Yet, here I am...still learning to find the balance in doing what needs to be done, letting what things can wait wait, and learning that rest is good. I'm grasping ever so slowly that life comes in seasons, and to find the joy in each one.  I've been writing this post over and over in my head, and I'm hoping I can share it with you in the way I've imagined without leaving anything out. We are on our 8th day of a Dan